Show j 1 q J oJ v i i ICOm o wim 1 IT IS THE PHYSICAL WE LONG FOR I cant can't help wondering little book at the tho peculiar antics of or fato fate In keeping Dick and Malcolm Stuart apart I think however both men have helped the the- matter along I dont don't believe either cither wishes to meet the other Dick has no Idea of or tho the extent of or Malcolms Malcolm's and my friendship While I was ill I kept Malcolms Malcolm's letters from rom everybody simply because because be he- cause I wanted to have a lILUe slice sHee of oC life for my own delecta delecta- tion Malcolms Malcolm's letters gave me something some thing to think and I was like hike a child who was afraid if she sho told some of her bel fanciful Ideas to others they would bo ho rudely ruddy shattered and she would bo ho told there was no such thing as fairies When Malcolm l Mal m Stuart returned and In lit m my heart I knew he lie had sent Dr to mo me I could not tell anybody about our intimate understanding One thing thins has been proven to mo me by It however and that Is there Is such a ti thing as platonic friendship frIendship-a a very beautiful sympathetic relationship relation ship in which there thero is not a hint of sexual attraction I am quite sure little book that I embody for Malcolm l Stuart somo some of or tho family ties and family f relations relations re re- lations he has missed a missed a relation cemented by a 3 similar longing t to get set to the root of things to probo probe to the very cry bottom of that undercurrent under current of which the individual seldom speaks I have bave come como to tho the conclusion that no matter how high you set your our ideals there Is always a hankering hankering han ban kering for Cor the physical Men most men hardly recognize this in themselves and they would think they had committed the unpardonable able ahlo sin against the ancient order of chivalry if it thc they talked of It when the name of or woman was iii mentioned en But although perhaps only those geniuses who are ablo able to give a message of or sympathy to understanding seem to know it the fact remains that nature has played a Joke joko upon us all Galsworthy wh who o perhaps moro more than titan an any other modern author has reached down Into the soul of humanity says There Thore is no getting get set ting out of It It-a It a maladjusted animal ani ant mal civilized man Malcolm Stuart has seemed to sense enso this and though ho doesn't say It a as well as Galsworthy heIs ho he hoIs hois is the only person In all this world ho ho has made me feel ho hn knows and understands m my almost Incoherent In In- coherent longings Ho knows as does Galsworthy that while life ma may hold moments moment I with wiLl that quality of Or f beauty of or unbidden flying rapture the thie troa- troa 1 ble ide is they ther last no longer than the span of a clouds cloud's flight over O the 1 sun The They arc are as fleeting as aa one ono of tho lie glimmering golden Jolden visions vl ono one has of the soul in hi nature glimpses of ot its remote and brooding brood broodS in ing spirit Little book why Is It that I Ibold hold bold my hands out to Dick Dick Dick- oyer every nerve nervo in Iii m my hod body every cell in m my ray brain ever every beat of oC my m heart clamoring to he be understood under under- stood only stood only to find I am alit speaking In a language that try as ns no ho may he cannot understand With all this wh why does lees the touch of or Dicks Dick's hand on my shoulder still sun thrill me Only for a n short time was I Impervious Im fm- pervious to that peculiar magnetism magne II lens that Dicks Dick's presence always exerts over me Struggle against it as I may may and and I know now I have struggled against it always always- I when Dick comes Into the room the primitive speaks and I know ho he is m my man On tho the other hand all that is cultivated through th the e thousands of oC years ears all that speaks s through me in the tho words of oC the tho exquisitely Greek chorus of the apple tree the tho singing and the gold finds resting place In the understanding understand understand- in ing of or Mal Malcolm olm Stuart Little book am I different from other women other men all humanity hu manity I think not for I still subscribe to Galsworthy Wo We are arc yet only maladjusted animals To be he continued |